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【】gain.hepifillingasingleredwood trunk,ajules,andbodiesnotverydifferentfrohe juleonthehilliographthatlayfacedohels draheaded.ohyeah,exhaustiondid that,butthereoretoit.craedinapitkholehhis daughters,orethanafeudandthesllofwood andrainats,hehadrecapturedsothihoughtforever lost. itrendingthought.arachelknehe threeoftheere. sheuldnt,ofurse,unlesssheabove, butherefused,absolutelyrefused,tobuyintothat.no.shewas stillinaa,ahephoneinhispocketrangtosayshe hadpossiblyknoheywere.hewas fantasizingagain.butboy,hefeelingreal. itstayedreal.rachelheytraipsedbackthrough theselvesoff.shetookashower atchedhis,helpedhiakehot goodnightand follointothebedroo heshookoffthefantasybedintobed,butitretuedina flash.hesatupandstaredintothedark.hethoughtabouthoired hehisch. ithirty.hehadasuddeodrivebacktothe hospital. hecalledthereinsteadandoldthatrachelhadntwoken. helaydoforthehospital,lay doe.hecalledthehospital. helaydoupaheinued, peacefuland,restorative.ait,feltrachel. uedathethedoor.shedidnt sayanything,justhungontheknobandlookedathi ”areyousensingthings”heasked. shenodded. ”,too.”heranhishandsthroughhishair.soybetheyh goihingsochthatitbecarealintheir nds. theonlythinghekhebeabletofall backtosleep.”akeadrive”hopeedsideo thebackseat.santha,hahedoor andafisttoher.hereyeslosed. jackkeptbothhandsohegas. therainhadsloinutespast sunriseonagrayday.traffioonespoke. jaalplace intheparkinglot,thenbackedoutandpickedanotherspot.theold onehadntight.helookedatthegirls,daring theoask.herdid. astheyleftthe, buthedidnthavethepatieofortheelevator.hefoundthe stairsandtookthee,hegirlstrottedclose behind.theysorachelsfloor,strodequicklydohehall, aoherroondsohelphidespiteallcautionary thoughts,heexpectedtoseerachelproppedhigher,hhereyesopen a,andasleintheworks. hestoppedjustiheroosantha,hopeonhis right.rachelelittlebitopenthat theyhadbeenthenightbefore. ”hopecalled. santha”noge”jackswallowed.hisbodydrained ofenergyalikerubber. disappointntlaythihisthroat. heapproachedthebed.sittingbyrachelship,heputanarn eithersideaveherthelightest,softestkissonthe uth. ”happened,daddy”hopeasked. ”idontknoourselvesh ing. ””thisisgettingold,”santhaplained. heletoutabreath,thenspokehangryforce.”youretoyingh us,rathe bedandtothesendslaterhethebed, arstraddlingrachelagain. thistihestared.helookedatherlongandhard,o openthosebarelyopeneyes.herlipsauve, herhairgold.therestofherhanpale,andthin. hentiostare.sothinghere.hereyeswere dartingaround.hesaespot e,a tinyfrown. hepouredhielfintoitthisti,diggingdeep,cursingherfor punishingthe,willingherfinally, finally,finallyahegirlscall,buthedidnt respond.everythinghehadusedonrachel. anotherfroe.hereyesbeganvingreslohis breathhegirlsspoke.againheignored it. eon,rachel,eon,eon,rachel. herlidsfluttered.theyshut,thenpressedtogether.slohey rose. jackbehindhithere all.rachelseyesstayedonhisface,stayedthereso longthathehalffearedsheatose.thenhereyesbroke froisandvedpasttohope. ”y”hopecried. hereyesshiftedtosantha,igod.”when thoseeyesretuedtohitheyovedher fingersintoaloosefistbinside.puzzledeyesto hope,tosantha,andba.jackothinkshe ghthaveaesiailed.ina voicethatveryrachel,sheasked,”sdoing”he huggingrachel,talkingandlaughingatthesati,andthoughjack feltthesaexuberaheydidaohugher,too,hegave theoothisostiortantthing,afterall,racheland hergirls.shehanothershoutof relief,helefttotellthedoctorsthenews. katherineedupright,e. ”wideawake”sheasked. ”bering””shesnfusedabout happenedanddayitis,andshesak, thatisthebestneevebeenby””hesonhisway.” ”soa,”shesaidandhurriedintotheshowasonlywhenshe thatshereeredjacks dilea.she.sheplaellrachelthat. shetuedofftheshofillthe rooirror,sherubbedskincrealloverher ...